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Hey People!
So if you've been keeping up with me for a while, you might remember that I posted about a year and a bit ago about my trip to Oxford for the University's open day. Thinking back on that trip is crazy - I felt like Rachel Berry walking through the streets of New York City that day!
Well, I wanted to give you guys an update...
I applied to study Experimental Psychology at Oxford this year, got through a huge interview crisis (a story for a rainy day) and got an offer! My offer was an A* and two As! But, the twitter-savvy ones amongst you will know that it was A-level results day a couple of weeks ago and I found out that...
I GOT IN! GUYS, I'M GOING TO OXFORD THIS MONTH!
This is insane. Absolutely insane. I've been working up to this point for seven years, and to open up my envelope and find out that I'm going...I can't tell you guys how incredible that feeling was. My teachers were so proud of me. My parents and family were so proud of me. Frankly, even I felt a little bit proud of me.
I've faced curveball after curveball, and a lot of the time it feels like I don't deserve this, or that me being picked is a mistake. But that day, I was proud of me.
This is huge. I can't believe it, I don't think I really will until I'm there. People like Stephen Hawking, C.S. Lewis and Imran Khan have studied at Oxford. People would kill to have the kind of influence those people have had. I hope I can learn so much, and just blossom. Become the person that I am on the inside, and be able to take what I learn beyond and help as many people as I can.
So, on to new adventures now! I've already done a massive post about the huge changes my life is heading towards (which you can check out here...hehe), but one thing I can say for definite is that I am absolutely terrified. Oh, I'm excited too, moving out of a traumatic and toxic home environment, but I'm just as scared as I am happy.
I have to start again. And I'm not sure I have the strength in me to do that with 100% energy. But...on a cautiously hopeful note, maybe...I won't need 100% energy? Maybe...people will like my weird, awkward-as-hell personality? I got some advice about this particular issue - my friend told me to just put myself out there. Is it as easy as that? And what does that even mean? Actually talk to people? Whew, that's scary.
Aside from that, I, honestly, have a lot of posts in my draft folder, not yet ready to see the world...but I am gonna try and work on those and feel more confident about putting them out there!
Thanks for having my back, all the way.
See you soon,
Oxford Girl
oh whoops, I meant...
Love,
SS xx